Unplugging

When Facebook reached the Philippines at 2009, it was really a hit. It was like 90’s kid with friendster but even better. Social Media became a thing. I’m not saying that social media wasn’t a thing before 2009 but it became trendy. Twitter became a new found platform to rant, facebook became a way to communicate to other people, instagram became a platform to brag. It was a good thing at first. It really was.

9 years after of the social media became something else, was it still good? Facebooking while eating with family. Chatting on messenger while with friends. They say that, social media made it easy for others to communicate with relatives and friends who are far from us. But it also made us less more social. We prefer to talk to those who are far from us rather than talk to the one beside us.

I missed those times that a mailman will go to our house because of a letter. (Hi Mommy Linda! I still got your letters!) I missed those visits at post office to send my letters off. I miss those days when playing outside was a thing. I miss the laughter, I miss the noise when family came together. Because nowadays, it is really a gem if you found a family who is loud in the dining room or in a restaurant (Yes! my family’s a gem!)

Social Media made us become a self-entitled human being. It wasn’t bad actually, knowing your worth, but when the self-entitlement is too much that it became arrogant, I don’t think it was okay. Social Media also became the way to define someone’s successes. I am one of those who are ashamed of what I become, like, why did he or she traveled a lot? Why am I still stuck here? Why am I such a loser? Those are my thoughts before. (Before I started this blog) Those are the other reasons of my depression.

Social media also became our platform to embarrassed others, to make them feel nothing when in fact we don’t know anything. We thought that some posts on the internet were real. When in fact it weren’t. We tend to judge someone else’s life easily when we really know nothing.

We call it freedom of speech, I called it something else. Freedom of speech has a responsibilities as well as consequences. Some says that “We have freedom of speech, so we will say what’s on our mind”. Really though? For me, freedom of speech has responsibilities and consequences, first is to think before you click. Think before you share. Think before you post something on the internet. Always think and balance everything else, Is it true? Will someone get hurt? Will this beneficial to others?

There’s nothing wrong in sharing news and all over the internet. It was fine but I think it shouldn’t be biased. It should be well thought and it shouldn’t be over a meme. It sadden me actually, when someone’s sharing something over facebook that I think it wasn’t well thought or a fake news.

So why I entitled this blog “Unplugging”? Because it was nice to unplug once in a while. It was nice to be over on something that is toxic. Yes social media is toxic. It wasn’t healthy. Social media became our basis of someone else’s life. It became the basis of someone’s wealth and someone’s achievement.

Sometimes it is good to unplug from the world and escape this toxic world. I really want to unplugged.

So while writing this blog and researching for the right terms to use, I encountered this website. Did you know that there this National Day of Unplugging? Well, now you know so am I.

National Day of Unplugging is on March 1-2, a 24 hour event. So yeah, I am joining. It was really good to unplug to reconnect right?

How about you?

Till next time!

All the love!

Sidneyenyen

Blogging and Vlogging

I started blogging way back 2013, because of this I overcome my depression. I love how I share my thoughts, my reviews and my point of view in life. But it saddens me to see that my favorite bloggers are not active on blogging anymore. I know, I am inconsistently updating my blog before but I’m trying to change it by writing one blog per day.

I haven’t checked my favorite bloggers for a while now but back then, when I checked their websites, I am glad that they are new updates. But, when I checked their websites now, there are not that active anymore.

I don’t mind that they are turning into vlogging because you see, it became a thing. Technology is always changing and I think it is time for youtube to be one of the top social networking platform if not the top but I think to abandon something you love first hand was a little bit disappointing.

I am not judging those bloggers who prioritized vlogging. I just want to share my sentiments about this. Seeing them active on youtube but not as active on their websites. I mean, some people still reads you know. They still prefer to read rather than watching.

I do vlog. I have videos on my youtube chanel but I don’t abandon the thing that helped me survived my darker days.

But I do understand them, editing videos is taking a lot of time than writing a blog. I thought that vlogging is much easier because you just have to be yourself and talk. But well, there’s this editing part which made my head ache all the time. I can write 2-3 blogs a day but I can’t edit 2-3 vlogs in one day.

Checking how your videos should turn out over and over again. Once you render your video, you will still watch it for the nth time just to be sure that your vlog was flawless. You have to download lots of  musics with no copyright because youtube might take your videos down. You have to find a good special effects for your vlog to be unique or to stand out from the rest.

You know, I understand them. But still, I wished that they won’t abandon their first love.

As for me, writing is my comfort zone so I won’t abandon it. You see, I write for myself, my readers (if there’s any) are just a bonus. The main reason why I made a blog is for me to cope up with my depression and insecurities.

I will continue writing as long as I’m enjoying it and as long as there’s someone who reads it (even if that someone is me 🙂 )

20170414_103726

Here’s me when we were in Quezon which I will be posting here soon!

till next time

All the love,

Sidneyenyen

Unfriending 101

Unfriending a friend is really difficult. You’ll think of all your memories with that person. You see, for me there’s this unintentional unfriending and there’s this intentional unfriending.

Unintentional unfriending is when you and your friend grew apart. From the word unintentional meaning, you didn’t do it on purpose, it just happened.

Intentional unfriending is you have a reason why you unfriend him or her. I mean you do it on purpose. Be it because you two had a fight or what but you definitely knew that he or she will not be your friend anymore.

You see, life is really fair but the circumstances were not. Life is being complicated by you and by the people around you. In this toxic world, to not be stressed, you have to cut everything that could stress you. I’m not saying it is easy but I think it should be done.

You’ll know when you need a friend to unfriend. When she or he became toxic, if you gave him or her all the chances he or she could get but always blew the chance. You’re not on the same page anymore. When you think you’re the only one who treasures your friendship.

Friendship is a give and take relationship. It is more than being in a relationship (when a girl is always right even if she is wrong XD). When you think she did something bad to you, you’ll forgive him or her and like versa. It is not a give and give relationship where you’re the only one who is doing the giving part. Forgiving him or her, giving him or her your time, lending your ears, giving yourself. Friendship is not like that. Friendship should be a two-way relationship and not one.

Did someone unfriended me? Yes, and I’ve been living with it ever since. The what ifs. What if I shouldn’t be too sensitive? What if I became more forgiving, what if I didn’t get mad or what if I shouldn’t said what I said. All the what ifs but I always go down to: Is it worth it? The friendship, I mean? When every time you think of that person you only realized that you became too forgiving and too understanding when in fact it was your the only time you vent out? So yeah, the friendship isn’t worth regretting.

Did I unfriend a friend? Of course it happened to me. I’ve been doing it for a long time. I had been unfriending friends for half of my life. You can easily gain my trust, yeah, but I could only give a few chances for you to gain it back, and when I am done. I am really done. You may say that I’m ruthless, who could do that right? But when you were fed up with everything she or he did to you, you can’t say that you are ruthless. You just know your worth.

But don’t get me wrong okay? I am a very forgiving person. I don’t easily triggered by someone and I don’t easily cut someone’s out of my life. You really did something really bad to me for me to unfriend you.

I have friends who used me. I have friends who became my friends because of what I could give them. What I could do right? I really like to have friends way back elementary to high school. Since I’ve been bullied a lot and a lot of my classmates don’t like me, I get what I could get. And that really hurts me this days; thinking about my younger self, being treated like that. I wanna say to her that “Girl, it’s not worth it. You should know better.” But what could I do, I crave for something. Who wouldn’t want to be accepted right?

I became better when I was in college. I didn’t crave for someone’s attention, I realized that when a friend is really a friend to you, he or she will stay for who you are not for what you could give them.

I treasure all of my friends when I was in college. I still get in touch with them from time to time. We still go out, we still communicate. But then, life happens and people change. You may not know it right away but you will. People won’t stay the same as you know them before. But it will be your choice if you will stick to them or not.

I still have lots of friends, and I will forever be grateful for them. I believe that even if you lose some, you will also gain some. So it is up to you if you accept it or not.

20170326_210426

In time, I will lose friends but the girl beside me in this picture, she is my constant. No matter what happened she will remain as my constant.

So yeah, Sorry for this lengthy post. I don’t know what’s gotten into me but I really like to write about this for quite some time now.

Till next time guys!

All the love,

Sidneyenyen

2018 Dreams, Goals and Hopes

Hi guys! Sorry for being MIA for more than 6 months. I don’t know how to explain this but with works, family and studies; I don’t know how to insert blogging into my life. I am really sorry for that loves.

But the waiting is over. This 2018, I am back into blogging and into your life once again. I do hope you will let me enter your life with open arms.

I am back! Haha! After how many months of taking a break. I can finally say that I am back! And I know that I am almost 2 months late but better late than never.

I welcome 2018 with open arms with big dreams, goals and hopes. I want to make a difference since my 2017 is not really OK. Although I am so thankful for some happening last year but yes for almost 4 months last year, I am in the dark. So to close the door for the bad luck last year, here are my dreams, goals and hopes this 2018.

I am hoping…

  • for a better 2018 for my son Keyn because last year, he got bullied by his classmates and friends
  • for a better me. I want to be wise.
  • to learn to say NO. I am a YES person since I received lots of rejections since elementary days, I don’t want others to feel the same way.

I am dreaming…

  • for a happy and successful 2018.
  • to travel at least 5 times this year. 2 outside the country and 3 here in the Philippines. I know, this may not happen but no one stops me from dreaming right?
  • to win a lottery prize. Haha! Dreams right? keep on dreaming!

I am aiming…

  • for a successful business this 2018 since we are starting one.
  • for a successful normal delivery (yes I am pregnant!)
  • to become successful this 2018. I am tired of dreaming that my year will be different. Now, I am doing my best to make this year a big one.
  • to become a better mother. I realized that I neglected Keyn for sometime now. I am not focused on his schools and it made me realized that I am not a hands on ma’am. This year, I promised to myself to become a better mother.
  • to be organized. Every year, I want to be organized. But as always, I am a failure on this matter. Therefore, since I am aiming to be successful this year, being organized should be a must.
  • to have a thesis title proposal approved. I am on my masters degree now, and this semester, we are proposing a thesis title. Any ideas?

So what are your dreams, goals and hope this 2018? I will keep you on track on my list so that you will all know if I failed or if I am not!

I have so many plans this 2018. And another goal this year? is to have at least 200 blog posts! yes! So now, let’s start the countdown.

1 down. 199 post to go.

Until next time loves.

lovelots,

Sidneyenyen

Sidneyenyen @ 3!!

Hi guys! Thank you for 3 years and I hope that you will support me up to 1oo years! Thank you for reading my nonsense posts and I hope you learned from these.

Before, I really have no self-confidence, but now thanks to this! I can post myself with my swimsuit online!!! Though I have friends who read my entries, I would like to lessen their burden. lols! I won’t be posting my superbod and my swimsuit yet. Will post soon but not today! Ayokong maumay kayo! hahahhaha!

But of course I would like to share to you guys my favorite picture so far! Please be noted that this is not filtered! Gawd! I love mother nature.

20151226_181433

Again, thank you for reading my entries bibis! From the bottom of my heart thank you oh so much.

Sidneyenyen x

Different You

Hi guys! I just finished reading Me Before You, and I was like dude, is love isn’t enough? I will surely read lots of romance novels just to get it out of my mind. Seriously, I am devastated by the outcome. Yes, it may be different from others but why?????? Isn’t Lou enough? I can’t read After You, it will really break my heart. (Okay! I need to update this one since I typed this before I talked to my officemates. They told me that if Will didn’t commit suicide, the novel will just be the same old romance novel. Yes I got their point! But I still can’t believed it! I’m gonna email the author and tell her my sentiments!!!!!)

Enough of my rant and let’s proceed with my entry. It came to my attention that I only posted 4 entries so I really need to step up my game!

This entry should be posted almost 2 weeks ago (yeah! I added the word almost because if I didn’t add almost, this entry will look like it is looooooong over due but if you add almost, it is like more than a week but not more than 2 weeks! Got my point? Yeah I guess not. I really don’t get myself sometimes. so let’s back to reality) but I got busy so yeah, supposedly this is my 3rd-entry-for-this-week kind of post but it became my first-entry-for-this-week. Oh my gosh! I should step up my game!

Let me share to you our Year End party last December. See It’s long overdue but nevertheless here it is!

Last December we had our year end party. I forgot about the theme but as you can see, our costume is Philippine National Costume. I chose to be different this time. Dare to be different right? And guess what? I was nominated for the best dress. Lols! See, different is good.

We had fun of the music videos we made, our group didn’t win but  I am glad that our team bonded and that’s what really important right. Friendship over Prizes and awards but a few recognition won’t hurt right? lols!!!!

Since my officemates chose to be traditional that time and wore Filipiniana, I dared to be different, I chose the National Costume of Muslims. I hope I made them proud. Lols!!!! Actually it wasn’t my decision to wear this, it was my mother’s (Yeah, mom! mother knows best indeed) you see I’m not really rich and all so I asked my mom if she has costumes like Filipiniana because my mom aced all Christmas parties of their company! She should have her own costume rental! Fortunately she has because I don’t want to spent money for a one night event. (but it is really tempting! This is just a night event right, one night every year, you really want to be beautiful and all.) So I borrowed my mom’s costume. Viola! I even nominated as best dress! See you just really need to be different to stand out.

I mean, you are just you in what? In billions of people on earth and you chose to be someone you’re not. Try to be something different, try to be you. Don’t pretend and don’t try to to be someone. You are you, no one can change that.

20151205_194353

20151205_194625

20151205_193516

20151205_221642_001

20151205_215804

20151205_210249

20151205_222553

20151205_195521

20151205_210048

20151205_161641

20151205_161622

20151205_161637

20151205_232813

After the event we spent the night in one of their rooms and I must say I wanna live there!!!!!

Share to me your thoughts! Comments are love 🙂

P.S. Sorry for the over use of exclamation point. 😛

Sidneyeneyen x

My Impossible Dream

Hi guys! It’s been a long time since I blogged. So let me share to you my experience last month. Even though it has been a month ago, the memory is still vivid.

Some of us has a list of our fears and impossible dreams-be it on your mind or on your paper- I have one. I listed some on papers and some are still on my mind. One of my impossible dream is hosting an event.

You see, I may be an outgoing kind of person, an easy to talk with kind of pal and a happy-go lucky kind of woman (woooosh! Did I write woman?) But deep down I have a stage fright. My college friends can agree with me. They saw me being nervous in front of a crowd (be it small or big), stuttered, and most of the time cried.

How petty right? How can I, a talkative peppy damsel can have a stage fright? But for me it was not petty at all.

Now, you can picture out what my reaction when they asked me to host our townhall meeting with more than 100 participants. I can’t even host an event/meeting with 10 participants, how can I host an event with 100?

After few minutes of discussion I found myself agreeing. How did I agree? I didn’t know what happen. The next question I asked is how will I do it?

They told me to “BE YOURSELF”.

Easier said than done.

I’m freaking out few days before the event. There’s no program and I don’t even know what should I do. I didn’t know I will say this but thanks to the overload projects I am distracted.

On the day of the event. I AM STILL FREAKING OUT! Who wouldn’t right? It is on! I mean i’m not dreaming anymore. I can’t back out because who will take my spot? NO ONE! So I gathered all my strength and my power (chos!) I thought to myself “I knew all this people. I talked to them, I laugh with them and my friends knew I can do it. Why should I doubt myself?”

image

image

image

image

image

image

image

So yeah. I gathered the remaining confidence I have in my body and started to do what I do best, I started to talk! I was nervous at first who wouldn’t right? But I did it! I was nervous, I stuttered a lot but I did enjoyed it. I am happy I conquered my fear. I made my impossible dream possible.